Frankly My Dear, I DO Give A Darn.

Too bad I'm not more like Rhett Butler (and yes, I know that is not the phrase he said completely but this is a kid friendly zone!). That guy didn't really care what anyone thought of him. Oh the freedom of that frame of mind!

I'm not sure where we pick it up. How the change starts or the first decision that leads us down this path. But it happens.

I care what people think about me.

Why? Why does it matter what so and so thinks about my clean (or lack thereof) house, my wardrobe (yes, most of which is yoga pants and vintage t-shirts at this stage in my life) or my child raising abilities. And those categories just hit the tip of the iceburg.

I am often jealous of my hubs, he really doesn't give much of a darn of what anyone thinks of him. When I've expressed words of frustration to him about my mommy-guilt, he never ceases to look at me incredulously and exclaim, "you think about stuff like that?"

In a word, yes.

When did the overpowering voice of the world (even other Christians, most of which are well-meaning) start shouting louder than the voice of God in my life? I have an overwhelming need to explain my short-comings (and perceived short-comings) to anyone who will listen (hence this blog!).

This all being true, one of the lessons I am learning is to say NO. This people pleaser hates this word and has a hard time saying it. I hate disappointing anyone.

However, I have learned in the best interest of my family, that saying no, even to things that are 'good' is okay. This is the phase in my life where I spend most of my time at home as a SAHM and that is ok. It doesn't make me a bad mom, wife, etc. So I am working on doing a few things well and one of them is raising my children (and keeping my sanity). In order to accomplish these few things, some things may have to fall by the wayside. This is just a season of life after all, it doesn't mean I can't do other things in the future.

I may not be Rhett but I can do a better job of showing myself grace when I sacrifice some good things in order to make better decisions for my family, all the while, learning to not give a darn about what people might think of that.